I know I’ve been MIA on here for a while. It’s interesting how life has it’s ups and downs. It’s busy times and slow times. It’s happy times and sad times. Reminds me of this passage actually:
There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven—
A time to give birth and a time to die;
A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted.
A time to kill and a time to heal;
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to weep and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn and a time to dance.
A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing.
A time to search and a time to give up as lost;
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear apart and a time to sew together;
A time to be silent and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate;
A time for war and a time for peace.
~ Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 (NASB)
In our family, it is a time of struggle, and a time of great joy. A time of reflection, and a time for preparation. We are eagerly awaiting the arrival of baby number three to our household. This brings us much joy and excitement as we can’t wait to bring a new little life into this world. It is also a great time of struggle as pregnancy is difficult for me. I have suffered through Hyperemesis Gravidarum through both of my previous pregnancies, and while this pregnancy has been gentler to me, I have spent many, many days on the couch just trying to survive and not throw up more. It’s hard on my kids. It’s hard on my husband. It’s hard on me.
All of this turmoil, mixed with excited anticipation has led to a time of great reflection. During these times I’m brought back to the feet of Jesus, recognizing my great need for Him. While emotions run the gamut of sheer joy and excitement to despair and survival, I struggle with consistency. I long to dive deep into the word of God and fill his comfort, yet, I feel a need to focus on the milk of the word (1 Peter 2:2) when my brain is so fogged.
After taking some time to pray this morning, I have decided to simply focus on the Psalms. These are the prayers of David in good times and bad. These are the heart cries of a human being longing to know His savior more, longing to trust Him during rough times and praise Him even when his world seems to crumble. Yes. The Psalms are where I need to go to connect with my God.
I am going about this a bit oddly though. Psalms is a big book. I often start at the beginning, but fail to make it all the way through, so this time, I’m starting at the end and working my way forward to discover all those gems I often miss.
I hope you join me as I study through Psalms. I know some days I will be filled with energy and excited to spend my time with God, and other days it will be all I can do to cry out to Him in prayer. As such, I plan to share a Psalm with you every other day. Please be patient with me if there are gaps. Thank you for learning and growing with me. I pray it will be a blessing to you as I know it will be to me.
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